The ADF e-mail lists are often quiet, often noisy, sometimes interesting, sometimes not, just like, well, like most e-mail lists. (As opposed to forums, which are always noisy and seldom interesting, but that’s just my opinion! >8) While I’m not allowed to repost messages from any of the lists, I did want to mention the contents of one that was put on the Hellenic Kin’s list last week. The poster felt that she was being called by the goddess Athena to do spiritual work with her, but she was reluctant to respond because she had an issue with Athena. Specifically, that during the story of the trial of Orestes, Apollo argued in Orestes’ defense that killing one’s mother wasn’t as grave a matter as killing one’s father, because mothers only nurse the seed of the male and therefore the relationship between mother and child isn’t as strong as the one between father and child. And that Athena cast the deciding vote to acquit Orestes, and that therefore this meant that Athena hated women.

A lot of stuff to address there for a modern Hellenic Neo-Pagan priest, eh? Fortunately, many of the other members of the Kin gave her the good advice of “be receptive and ask her what she wants from you” that I would have given as well, for any general query of this sort. No harm in doing that, and if a god’s demands are more than you’re willing to give, you can always say “no thanks”. But I did respond with a few other points, and I figured those would be good to share here as well. Since I *am* allowed to repost my own stuff from the lists, I’ll save myself a bit of typing:

Mainly I wanted to note here that the issue you're having a problem with isn't really from a myth, is it? It's from a play. A play that was written by one man and entered into a competition with other plays at a festival. Not exactly what I'd consider "the word of the gods", any more than the average Christian would consider the movie "The Last Temptation of Christ" an accurate depiction of their god's beliefs or tenets. And even if we do take "The Eumenides" as an accurate account of how the Greeks viewed their gods, I just reread  the relevant bits of the version at the Perseus Project  (http://www.perseus.tufts.edu/) , and after Apollo says the part about women being merely vessels, Athena turns  the proceedings over to the jury without commenting on Apollo's claim. And when she  casts the tie-breaking vote, she votes for mercy, not for "I think women suck". I'm not reading this as an anti-feminist decision on her part.

Now, if you're upset because the ancient Greeks really did believe that thing about women only acting as vessels to the life-giving seed of a man, well, yeah. Like most of our Ancestors, they weren't perfect, and like some of our Ancestors, they could be downright stupid in some ways. My grandfather, a skilled lawyer and a talented spy (no, really. he was), believed to his dying day that smearing butter on a burn was the best way to treat it. And my grandmother was a talented teacher and school superintendent, and never managed to stop smoking. Dealing with that dissonance between revering our predecessors and understanding their flaws is part of the human experience, and doing that at a cultural level is part of the Pagan reconstructionist experience. Welcome to the club. >8)

I suppose I could have extended the list of personal failings of my Ancestors (couldn’t we all?) but you get the idea.

On a personal note, I believe that the gods do change over time – more slowly than we “Children of Earth” do, sure, but I definitely don’t believe that they are completely static and unevolving. If the gods are being honored and made offerings to by modern Pagans (and worse from the view of the Ancient Greeks, modern Pagans most of whom don’t speak Greek), then presumably they will either adapt to our modern needs, or choose not to accept the offerings. And if a god contacts you by whatever method and wants you to talk to them, presumably they believe that you can do something positive for them, whether you think so or not. You don’t have to accept, of course, but I ask you not to reject the offer out of hand.

And many have already written about the relationship between the “real” gods and the stories that are told of them. We in ADF don’t have an official “party line” on the nature of the divine, so it’s unlikely that we’d ever have an official stance on this issue anyway. We leave it up to our members (and everyone else, really) to decide that for themselves. I would only point out that a lot of the stories we hear about other people aren’t true either, or are at least a little exaggerated, and would we really expect that to be any different for the gods? Work with them, honor them, build a relationship with them, and that will be more important and more wonderful than what anyone else thinks about them.

Rev. Rob Henderson
Senior Druid, Shining Lakes Grove, ADF

Ever since we started holding our Samhain rites outdoors in 1997, I've always worried about the weather for that weekend. November in Michigan isn't usually warm by anyone's standards, and some of our Samhain evenings have been barely above freezing. I think we actually had a light snowfall during one of them. So after last weekend's frosty Halloween night, I was thrilled to see forecasts of high 50s and no rain for this past weekend! Between that and the article on us in AnnArbor.com last weekend, I was hoping for a larger than average turnout for our first more-than-just-rituals Samhain weekend.

Sadly, things got off to a rocky start as I had to work late, and didn't get to the site until 7:30. And since this is Samhain, I had to be the one to kindle the Grove Flame for the coming half of the year, so everyone who did manage to get there on time had to wait in the freezing - well, 45 degree - dark until I got there. And of course, this was the one Fire Watch where we had more than four people there on time. I think I counted around 15 figures waiting in the gloom for us. Oops! Memo to self: next Samhain, start at 8, not 7.

Once the fire was lit and blessed, things went far more smoothly. Jude also had to work late, but all of the other officers were there, so we did our traditional swearing in of the new Leadership Council just a little behind schedule. Then Kestrel led us down to the nemeton for a quick hof blessing, where we added rocks to the Norse altar and made it look a lot, er, rockier? Well definitely more altarlike. And a Winternights rite to honor the dead. Kestrel did write up a script for us, which I'll put on the Grove Web site as soon as I manage to decode the handwriting. >8)

Then back up to the fire circle, where Gen and I gave a rambling talk about the chthonic gods of the ancient Greeks. It's always hard to tell whether your audience is really interested when you're giving a talk around a fire on a cold night, or if they just need warmth. But several people did tell me later how much they enjoyed it, and the new folks who said they'd gained new insight into how to view the gods was especially touching.

So home I went with the Flame, and spent the rest of the evening checking e-mail and smelling the fire's smoke on my hands. Always a powerful sensation, especially given how little I can usually smell. The next morning, I caught an early bus to get back to Botsford, with a stop at Dollar Tree for soda for the potluck and Halloween candy for the afternoon rite, and got there a bit after noon. The weather was gorgeous, it felt like 60 and the skies were cloudless!

At 1 o'clock we had a fair sized group assembles already for Nancy's workshop on jewelry making, which I didn't see because I was setting things up, and anyway when am I ever going to make jewelry?

The afternoon rite got started as close to on-time as our rituals ever do. >8) We went to the nemeton to honor Ana and Lugh, and six children and sixteen adults decorated popsicle sticks and decorated the Ana stone with them. The omen was good (Ansuz - Gebo - Teihwaz) and the energy level was the light and pleasant one I prefer for the early rite.

Back up at the Fire Circle, we had our usual raffle and potluck (and went through nearly all of the food that had been brought, very unusual!), and then Barbara demonstrated wool spinning and Sean had the children make construction paper "greeting cards" for the Ancestors altar for the evening rite. As more folks showed up for said rite, we got to work making our traditional luminaria with paper bags, tealight candles, and sand. Rod and Sean set up the tiki torches in the ritual circle using the last of the lamp oil we bought three years ago, and still it was warm out!

By the time we were ready to get started, it was fully dark outside, but the luminaria lit our way down the path to the nemeton, and the torches lit the circle very nicely. At least, until the oil ran out in most of them about twenty minutes into the rite. >8) I'm kinda torn about that, actually - I liked having the place lit up, but having things slowly get dark as we called the Ancestors into the circle had its own kind of charm. After the opening invocations, we called upon Manannan to be in the circle with us, and then in a new twist we thought up at the Liturgists' Roundtable meeting, asked folks to call upon gods of death and psychopompery from other cultures, which I thought went well. I'd have preferred to get people to actually volunteer in advance like we'd wanted, but that's a disappointment I've had to get used to for all kinds of ritual plans. But enough people were willing to do it off the cuff that I still think it worked.

After that, we passed the Ancestor doll (aka "Uncle Fester") around the circle twice, once for folks to call upon their Ancestors to be present, and again for the individual praise offerings. We then did group praise by throwing flax seed into the fire, and since we apparently didn't have the whiskey offering I thought we were going to use for the main sacrifice, I threw the rest of the flax into the fire for one big crackling burst of light. The omen was again good (Inguz - Berkana - Raido, I think, I may be transposing the first two runes), and the energy of the rite had the deep energy that I prefer for the evening rite.

Back up at the Fire Circle again, we had a lovely table set up where I placed the Fester doll and those of us who had brought food for the Ancestor Supper placed portions of the food on a plate for the Ancestors. Sadly, most of the 32 attendees ignored this lovely event and stayed over at the potluck table filling their own plates. That and the meager $81 in donations we got for a weekend that cost us $100 for the site fee plus a bit more for ritual props and copying costs was a bit of a downer for me personally. After all of the work that I and others put into making this magical (in more ways than one) weekend happen, that was a bit of a metaphorical face-slap. To think that if I took half the energy I put into providing open public ritual and spent it teaching New Age crystal Reiki nonsense for $90 an hour, I'd not only be able to support myself a Hek of a lot better than my flower delivery job lets me do, ugh. And it also keeps hitting me that if we moved the ritual to one of our indoor sites, we'd probably lose a lot less money on it, even if we did get fewer people in attendance. Still, the number of people who told me after the rite how beautiful and powerful the experience had been for them, and how many of them want to work on the ADF Dedicant Program in the coming year, did make me feel a little better.

And as with last year, since I still haven't been able to get my car on the road again (see aforementioned comment about supporting myself), we had to get the whole site cleaned in the dark. Which actually went a lot better than it did last year, in part because it was still very warm and not at all damp, and a few people did stay late to help.

So yeah, all in all a good Samhain weekend, and I'm glad we expanded it and added workshops this year. I just wish I could find a way to make the event both spiritually compelling and not a money loser for us.

Next week, some commentary on the nature of dealing with ancient cultures, the gods they honored, and the beliefs that they held.

Rev. Rob Henderson
Senior Druid, Shining Lakes Grove, ADF

Short entry this week, as I got home at 1:15 AM from a babysitting gig. Besides, what is there to say beyond "I'm going to be frantically getting ready for Samhain this week and will report on it in next weekend's entry"?

Well, one thing that's definitely worth mentioning, my interview with the report from AnnArbor.com was published yesterday! Well, sort of. I mentioned in last week's entry that I'd been interviewed by a reporter for an article about what all of the various churches in the area were doing for Halloween, and I hinted at her comment to me that not a lot of people were calling her back besides me. Well, it looks like there really weren't a whole lot of people calling her back, because the article never materialized on the site. But on Friday I got a call from a different reporter, wanting to interview me in what our Grove does for Samhain. So I did another interview, and that's the one that became the article you see on their site now. I'm certainly glad that we got to share a bit of what we do with the public, even if no gods actually got mentioned in the article. (And I even spelled "Manannan" for her to make sure she got it right! >8)

Current forecast is for the coming weekend to be a little warmer than this weekend was, but with scattered showers. Here's hoping that warmth and a newspaper article will still get us a good attendance for our many Samhain activities. (And remember, the preserve is an old-growth forest, the trees will buffer us from most of the wind!)

Rev. Rob Henderson
Senior Druid, Shining Lakes Grove, ADF

I have nothing new to report on locally besides our continued preparations for Samhain, and my continued hopes that the weather will still be good in a few weeks!

Well, I take that back. I did an interview with a reporter from AnnArbor.com (the descendant of our now-defunct local newspaper the Ann Arbor News) about our Grove's Samhain traditions. She told me she was hoping to write a piece comparing what we did with other area pagan groups, and in turn what some of the Christian and other non-pagan churches were doing, but apparently I was one of the very few people who got back to her about being interviewed, so we may get a larger share of the article than we'd expected. I'll post the URL in the comments here when the article goes online.

But the biggest news item for the week isn't local, nor is it good: Isaac Bonewits, ADF's distinguished founder (or "Extinguished Flounder"), has been diagnosed with colon cancer and is currently in the hospital awaiting further test results. Please keep both Isaac and his wife Phaedra in your thoughts and prayers, and you can check here for updates on their status: http://www.facebook.com/isaac.phaedra.bonewits

In the meantime, happy Halloween to everyone, and if you celebrate on the "official" date of November 1st, a blessed Samhain to you!

Rev. Rob Henderson
Senior Druid, Shining Lakes Grove, ADF

As the temperature here fluctuates between 30 and 60 degrees Fahrenheit from day to day, or at least it seems to, my thoughts turn to our Samhain ritual, and all the things I need to do to get our Grove ready for it. The weather isn't something I can do much about, and it saddens me to know that while a warmish clearish day could get us forty or more people to show up, a cold(er than usual) Saturday night with any kind of rain means we'll be lucky to get twenty. But if we had the ritual indoors, then we'd get complaints about not being close to nature. We definitely need to find a site where we can hold the rite either indoors or outdoors depending on the weather - but of course that would be even more expensive to rent that the sites we use now. And so it goes. And we wonder why pagan leaders are collectively so prone to stress. All of the hard parts of being a minister, and almost none of the support systems that the big churches have for their clergy.

But I don't intend this to be an "agony aunt" article, and there are plenty of things I can do to get us ready. First off this week, I got copies of Shining Lakes News to local stores Crazy Wisdom and Motte and Bailey. While we don't get a huge turnout from either (I love Crazy Wisdom dearly, but the vast majority of the folks there are too New-Agey or too Buddhist to want to attend anything we do), it's still good to get our info out to the community. Even if none of them show up to any of our events, we can hopefully educate them a tiny bit about who we are and what we do. (Oh, and Grove members get a ten percent discount at Motte and Bailey. I should remind people about that more often. Their sections on European history have excellent material for any student in any of ADF's training programs.)

On the more virtual front, I've posted our Samhain weekend schedule on our Web site, and posted it on WitchVox and our Facebook group and various other places online. These listings, and the ones we get in the Ann Arbor Observer, are the ones that get us folks showing up, or at least e-mailing us for more info. Well, I suppose if we threw a lot of money into advertising, we'd get even more attention, but we don't have that kind of money, and of course there's the PR issue of not wanting to look like we're desperate to convert people. Which we aren't, really. Of course, my writing here about wanting lots of people to show up could be construed as desperation, which maybe it is a little. >8)  But I know from thirteen and a half years in this Grove that more people almost always means a better ritual, both in the practical sense and the magico-spiritual sense. And I want our rituals to be good ones. That's my job.

Beyond that, I know that Samhain is nearing because I'm getting more e-mail inquiries about our Grove, but this can also be super-frustrating for me because most of the senders assume that we don't want them showing up to our ritual because rituals are private affairs and they're outsiders and... (banging head on desk repeatedly) Would I spend this much time trying to get the word out about our Samhain ritual if I didn't want people to be there? Do they think I'm such a sadist that I want everyone to know what a great group of pagans we are and what a great weekend of events we have going, and they can't come? Am I Cartman from that episode of South Park where he buys the amusement park? Feh. Decades of most pagan groups being Wiccan or Wiccan-influenced has convinced too many people that rituals are secret things people do in someone's living room and you only get to attend if you know somebody first. And no matter what I do, that's not gonna change for another decade or two at least. I only hope that doing to work of publicizing our open rituals makes it easier for future Senior Druids in that regard.

The next big step in Samhain preparation is, of course, our liturgists' meeting on Tuesday, where we'll come up with the overall themes for the various rituals we'll be doing on the 6th and 7th of November. We've been getting very good turnout for the last few meetings, and I'm confident that we'll have some good, strong ideas that will make our Samhain great.

After that, I'll need to get my own workshop ready. Yes, I probably do know enough about Hades and the other chthonic gods of ancient Greece to talk for at least half an hour, but if I really want to give them proper honor, I need to prepare notes and such.

Other that that, the only Samhain prep I've been doing is actually Halloween prep. I've got my various decorations out around the house, of course living in a basement apartment I don't have a lot of lawn space to work with, but every window I have is now decorated! I used to put jack o'lanterns our at my door, but being in the back of the house, I quickly discovered that any pumpkin I leave there will be devoured by squirrels within an hour, since there's no human activity to scare them off. So all carved pumpkins I've done since then have stayed indoors. Not showy, but I do like the smell of 'em, especially with candles in them! And roasted pumpkin seeds are one of the few foods that I can actually make well.

Oh, and there's one more thing I need to make sure I do before the big day. I need to spend some time outside, now that the temperatures are finally cool enough that I can actually be comfortable staying out for hours at a time. And the colors have finally started changing around here, and viewed from a distance the trees are right at that balance between red/orange and green that I love so much! And if I have to suffer the stressful bits of being a Druid priest, I should get to enjoy the fun bits too!

Rev. Rob Henderson
Senior Druid, Shining Lakes Grove, ADF